Well here we are 9 days from Christmas! I really don't want to be here, I want to be back in July celebrating the 4th of July with all of my girls! Watching the fireworks over Asheville with the children running all around! But time does move forward even when our hearts and souls don't seem to.
Last night we were able to get out a few decorations to try and make our home at least look "a little like Christmas." Abbigayle supervised Caroline and Sarah as they set out part of our "It's A Wonderful Life" (Jeff's favortie movie) Christmas village. Jeff helped me put out our Nativity Scene. Claire helped me pack it up last year.
One tradition that we have in our home is rotating each year who gets to place the Angel on top of the tree. Jeff and I purchased a beautiful Angel for our first Christmas together and once Abbigayle was old enough to place it on top of the tree Jeff has helped each of the girls place her on top of the tree. Each of the girls have had at least one turn. I had counted in my mind and thought it might be Claire's year to place the Angel, but I wasn't sure. Last night Jeff checked his list and then we knew for certain that this was Claire's year. With tears in our eyes and an almost unbearable pain in our guts we decided that there would be no Angel on top of our tree this year, she will sit underneath the tree.
I have shared the picture of the last time Claire placed our Angel on our Christmas Tree. We were still living in Weaverville.
Please keep us in your hearts and prayers, right now we are living moment by moment.
Blessings!
12 years ago
9 comments:
oh sweet angela - as i sit here with tears streaming down my face i am lifting you to the only ONE that can truly bring you guys comfort through the upcoming days! know we love you and will pray for you as you face each moment and seek HIS strength for the next step!! we love you so much!!
I love you friend and my heart aches for you. One moment at a time...
Kim
I loved talking with you today! My heart breaks with yours. What precious memories -- don't we love our wonderful Claire! I'll be telling God to give Claire sweet Christmas hugs and kisses for us this year! I can see her now eager to help with all of the decorating!
Angela, Thank you for the way you are able to find the strength and courage to share your heart. May our brokenness be a testament to our heavenly Father who is seeing us through moment by moment.
Angela, I have remembered something your freind Becky said once to Abbie on her blog....."Breathe in...Breathe out" God will get you through each breath. You are in my prayers. Love you guys!
I can't imagine what your going through even though I try. You are such an inspiration! God says He won't give us more than we can bear even though sometimes we don't feel like it. Your three beautiful girls will get you through this with Gods help. I hope you as well as your family have a restful and peaceful Christmas. Keeping your family in our prayers.
Thanks so much for continuing to share your heart with us and for sharing that sweet picture of Claire and your Christmas Angel. It could not have been an easy thing to do. This has to be one of the hardest times your family has had so far. Just know that you have many, many friends who are thinking about you and lifting you up to our Heavenly Father. We are praying for Him to give you a peace that passes all understanding during this Christmas season.
In His Love,
The Stephens Family
David, Teresa, Morgan and Rebekah
Oh Angela, I can't help but weep all over for you and Jeff and the girls. I have thought about little Claire so much lately! Thank you for pouring out your heart! She is the ANGEL this year!! I have been and will keep praying for each of you. Our loving Father will get you through I know. I will be praying specially about the next few days! May His mercies be limitless! Much love!
We love you and our hearts are breaking at the thought of you going through this. I wish, and I'm sure many others do as well, that I could do SOMETHING to ease your pain and take it all away. Thank you so much for taking the time to share your heart on this blog.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.
John 14:27
Please don't ever heistate to call if you need anything, anytime-I'm a night owl anyway.
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